These words do not mean that I am in deep depression. It simply means that I feel these emotions very deeply. Sometimes I feel my body contorting as it is consumed by emotion. At times I feel emotion rising from within, other times it comes out of the blue. Often it is uncontrollable. Other times the emotion is short lived.
It also does not mean that I have not smiled or laughed. I have. My kids and my friends have been truly supportive. Never under estimate the power of a hug, the true meaning of a short phone call, email or text or the delight of an invite.
To quote the Norwegian proverb, "One wave at a time." I will overcome.